In a very small moment of self-discovery this summer I decided I am not a summer mom. I am a school mom. Perhaps that's because I've been pregnant for the past two summers which turns the regular little difficulties of life into pure, unadulterated misery. Little things like slipping at the pool just before swim class in front of a dozen lifeguards who didn't do a thing to help me up or even ask if I was okay, even though I had Brigitta on my hip and with my huge belly had to roll from my awkward split onto my knees with my larger-than-usual booty facing all the watching parents and their little swim students while badly shaking because I was terrified I might have harmed my unborn child in the fall. Little things like that. Misery.
Ergo, I had Liesel completely ready for school by mid-July. School supplies, check. School clothes (including snow pants for crying out loud), check. New lunchbox, check. Forms completed and personally handed to the principal, check. First day of school outfit, check. No kidding, in mid-July this was all done. I found myself looping by the school whenever I had to run errands and straining to look in the windows to see if any teachers were prepping their classrooms yet. They wouldn't cancel it, would they? I so desperately needed it to start. In the weeks leading up to the first day of school, even Liesel was adding "Please bless school can start" to her daily prayers. I know I'm not alone. I just about laughed myself sick reading this post by Jen Hatmaker entitled, Worst End of Summer Mom Ever: A Sequel. So it's not just me.
At long last, the blessed first day of school arrived.
I had Liesel ready to go early so we could take the traditional photos and make sure she made it to class okay. I anticipated waiting until the bell rang but as soon as we got to her door, Liesel turned and waved goodbye at me. "Be sure to take Ireland with you!" she called out. Poor Ireland doesn't start preschool until after Labor Day. Whatever Kindergarten is, she could tell it was going to be much more fun than going back home with Mom and Brigitta. She mournfully dragged her feet heading back to the car.
| See Ireland waving back in the foreground? |
I didn't cry. Not a bit. In fact, it took a while for the huge grin on my face to fade. The house was quieter. Brigitta napped longer. I had more energy by mid-afternoon which is usually my breaking point. Life was beautiful. When I picked Liesel up I was excited to see her. Without thinking, the first question out of my mouth was, "Who did you sit by at lunch?" Until then I didn't realize that even though I was happy for school to begin, I was still worried about my little girl having friends. For the record, Liesel couldn't remember but she immediately started chattering away about all the things she did on her first day. It was a good day for all.













